Thursday, July 29, 2004
Alright.. well the title explains whats been goin on with me all week.. i gotta babysit for my sisters everday from 8:00 till around 3:00 then around 5:30 till 9:30 i babysit for some kids that my grandma works with their mom.. so yeh its pretty stupid but im gettin some money and im savin it so i can get my hair done before school starts.. im still contimplating on whether i wanna get it cut er not but im guessing no cuz that wouldnt be good cuz then ill just wanna grow it back out so it makes no sense.. my hair grew a little longer this summer.. but Mias is really long! it sucks washin her hair too lol I had to do it twice.. hmm JJ got a cell phone.. I get to see him tomorrow... hes bein kinda mean lately.. he didnt wanna come to the cabin cuz in his words he dont wanna "sit around with his finger up his butt" lol and in correhs words then he can "take it out and stand up" lol but yeh.... school starts pretty soon.. we only got august left to enjoy :(( i really dont wanna go back.. i hate school.. im too exhausted to even think about it.. i hate being 15 it sucks cuz i cant drive.. and im so close but i dont wanna wait a whole 10 months! i just wanna do it now.. but thats not gonna happen anytime soon.. hmm ive had kinda a depressing week.. ive cried myself to sleep like friday sunday monday and tuesday.. last night wasnt that bad.. im bored.. i wish it was friday already.. my aunt goes back to cali on sunday which sucks i wanna go with her but she starts her school (shes a teacher) august 17th.. thank god we dont start that soon.. id die.. but they probably get out sometime in may then.. which would be cool.. but id rather go later than get out sooner.. i dno im not ready for the school year to start.. mom wants to take me into teh doctor and get me professionally checked for ADD before the school year starts cuz i got tested for it by the guidance counselor last year but i think she was wrong.. im sick of not bein able to concentrate on anything.. maybe im just stupid.. lol well i suppose ill put quotes and then im gonna go get ready to go babysit again.. so ttul8a luv ya lots <3 Manda Joy <3
*lifes like that you cant get caught up in the things you wish could happen*
*messed up but thats what I do its in my blood. My life is so Fucked up, and as soon as I can get somthing that can classify as normal. i mess it up. I never meant to hurt you you are the only good thing I have. but i had to mess it up because if my life wanst a mess well it wouldnt be mine*
*All i ever hear is be a good girl just behave, sit up straight, stand up tall, never falter, never fall, stay in school, make the grade, never fail, never fade, be a hero, be a star, be everything but what you ARE*
*Its like being in a tornado that just wont stop ripping you apart. Except that finallly it does finally the wind dies down and your still standing*
*and if i could move im sure it would only be to crawl back to you i must have dragged my guts a block they were gone by the time we talked i want to hate you half as much as i hate myself*
Posted at 7/29/2004 3:01:15 pm by manda2007
Sunday, July 25, 2004
park, and rooftop fun... LMAO
Alrighty fellas n uhh... yeh lol i dno what the other one is.. ladies? er gals? girlies? LMAO!! im in a really really good mood... hmmm i stayed at Mias last night and lets rewind and start from the beginning.. uhh well i went to camp in the morning to be a counselor.. it was confusing but really really fun... lmao.. then i got dropped off at mias by my uncle umm.. i went in.. lol then i washed her hair and straightened it for her.. then i fixed my hair n makeup and we went on a walk to the athletic park... i dno why just cuz we wanted to walk.. then we walked somewhere else.. and we kept gettin honked and whistled at!! we had our skirts on.. and then some girl popped her head out of tthe window and shes like oww oww hey sexy!!.. it was kinda weird.. and mia n me were grossed out... lol then we went back to mias and Andrew n JJ were at the athletic field... LMAO so then we walked back again!! and then we walked around for like 3 hours lol no more like 1 hour looking for them...then we found them and they skated fer a while and geoff showed up then joe showed up.. then me and mia went on the tank and watchd some little girl doin cartwheels in her bra er somethin.. it was dumb lol.. then we all went back to mias and me n mia changed into our pants and me n JJ sat around in her room lol then we talked about some stuff and he BIT MY NAIL OFF!!! lol then.. yeh we pretty much layed there and talked.. then we went outside to wait fer Mias bonduel guys to show up and her mom came out and got mad at us fer somethn cuz she wanted jj n andrew to go to bed cuz she was goin to bed.. so yeh.. but mia got them to stay out with us thank u!! lol!! then.. we went inside cuz Mia called whoever and he said they couldnt come no more so we sat inside fer a while and then we went out on the roof with andrew and jj and then emily joe and ponch showed up and we all went out and sat on the roof but then mias mom poked her head outta the window and told us we had to get back inside lol.. we were laughin really really hard on the roof..... well me n jj anyways... then we all crawled back in thru andrews window cept for emily and joe and ponch.. cuz mias mom didnt know that they were there.. lol then ponch n joe jumped off the roof.. and emily went in andrews room till mias mom fell asleep and mia snuck her out.. lol then me n mia made ham n cheese.. and then JJ was playin songs on my butt LMAO... oh yeh... hmm then Mia went on the phone and JJ n Andrew were makin fun of me fer laughin at everything.... lol... then.... hmm JJ moved.. then i was sittin by him and Andrew was tellin secrets about me and i got mad so i moved... and he got really mad at me and wouldnt talk to me er touch me... but then Mia lol of course.. came out and made everything all better.. and I fell asleep on top of JJ LMAO!! then he said fuckin loser in his sleep and then i thought he was up... but he wasnt then a few minutes later i drooled all over him.. LOL then me n andrew were talkin and andrew was like sayin stuff lol then JJ woke up and i was like I drooled on u.. LMAO!!! then hes like where... and i was like somewhere around here.. lol then we sat there and hes like dude u gotta get offa me.. turn on ur side.. so we layed on our sides... BIG MISTAKE!!! im soo tickleish.. and he kept tickling me where it tickles most and i couldnt stop laughin er get him ta stop!!... lmao then andrew got mad and we finally stopped.. then we fell asleep and i woke up liek 2 hours later at 4 in the mornin and i was like wtf is that smell? cuz the people downstairs were smokin pot and it stunk up mias whole house!!... and then i was like im gonna go by mia and i got up and smacked my leg on the table... lol then i went in by her and it stunk!! but i kept smellin my shirt cuz it smelt like JJs cologne and im not gonna wash it till the smell goes away!! lol.. ill just pull it out and smell it everyday!! lol.. umm... yeh then today me n Mia woke up at 11 well i woke up at like 9:30 but i waited till i got too bored.. and then i woke her up then she did my hair and i washed hers and we got our makeup on and went to the athletic park AGAIN LMAO then we walked to Walgreens and freeloaded off the perfume but we put this really icky perfume on and it stunk rally bad!! lol so she got a shirt and we wiped it off and the shirt turned all black then we threw it on a shelf took some more perfume and left lmao!!... then we saw Mike and went to talk to him.. then later he went to mias and i talked to my dad on the net.. then i got dropped off at my aunts cabin which by the way she lives in Cali and she loves teenagers n kids cuz in her opinion "their full of happiness" lol shes soo cute!!! i love her so much!! and then i went on my uncles laptop which was cool cuz hes got sattelite internet and that was pretty nice.. then my aunt wants me to bring some friends out there this week so im gonna bring mia andrew jj correh and kayla.. yeh.. but yeh i suppose thats about it lol that is probably long!! well quote time oh yeh.. KRIS IS COOL!! lol
*I know that there were no guarantees no way of knowing what came next for me, or him or anybody, somethings dont last forever but some things do like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory, you can take and unfold in your darkest times pressing down the corners and perring in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there *
*Be optomistic all the people you hate now are eventually gonna die*
*I carved your name into the bullet some eveyrone knows that your the last thing to go through my head*
*Cuz these are the days worth living these are the years worth giving and these are the moments these are the times lets make the best time of our life*
*Took me for granted and told me its through, picked from my pockets, and smiled, empty is nothing, and nothing is you*
Posted at 7/25/2004 7:11:50 pm by manda2007
Friday, July 23, 2004
Alright so maybe you heard... me n JJ are going out again lol... Sorry if im starting to confuse you guys with this but its starting to confuse me too lol anywho... hmm what have i been doin well lets see.. wednesday.. i dont really remember what i did.. oh i stayed at my grandmas till about 4 then i went home then i probably ate lol and then went to sleep absolutly nothing special... thursday er yesterday i cleaned my whole house so that we could go shopping and i got a shirt and some headband thingers and some toe rings and an anklet and some makeup wohoo lol... then mom went grocery shoppin and stephanie was sick so me n her stayed in the truck and some guy in a white car pulled up next to our truck while we were in the parking lot and he had some black garbage bags in his hand then he walked up to the store and walked back to his car... it was quite odd... lol then he left and my mom fed the seagulls some cheese LOL it was really amusing... then last night i talked to JJ and Andrew and Joe and Kris on the phone and me n Correh texted on cell phones lol and today i woke up at 12:30 and went on here at 1 after i cleaned up the living room then at 2 i went outside to tan but the sun was all behind the clouds so i got pissed off and came inside and then the sun came out lol and now here i am again.. my parents are goin golfin today and i have to babysit cuz steph might go to andrews house er go visit our cousins er somethin and then tomorrow im stayin at marrissas house.. so yeh... lol thats my exciting life ima put a quote wait ill put 5 everytime i write so later luv ya'll <3 Manda Joy<3
*I gave you my heart thats all i can give and if thats not good enough then I'm not good enough*
*I think I'll go anti-love really who needs it? butterflies in the stomach and hearts skipping beats that can't be safe*
*Your tears are only alibis to prove you still feel, you only feel sorry for yourself*
*You can feel my heart beating so hard we look eye to eye and I'm swept away*
*Pass another around for the kids who have nothing more to lose*
Posted at 7/23/2004 2:58:21 pm by manda2007
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
The breakup,surprise party, and other things
Im sure ud never guess this one.. lol me n JJ broke up on.. Monday or Tuesday Monday i think yeh monday.. lol cuz of some weird stuff im still kinda confused btu i forgive him and i feel bad kinda cuz supposedly alot of people are tellin him to go back out with me so i talked to him last night on here and i was like well if their givin u shit about me sayin it would make me happy well it would but if it wouldnt make u happy then fuck em it dont matter u gotta do what makes u happy so I guess that mighta taken some akwardness outta things I dno i mean if we're meant to be together.. then we will be and im leavin that up to him now cuz it seems like everytime we go out we end up breakin up then he has teh shittiest days of his life.. right after we break up and it confuses me but i dont want him to be mad adn i dont want him to be sad.. cuz he means so much to me.. but theres just a time when u have to give up and let him decide and not push him into it.. but yeh..anyways i went to abbis surprise party yesterday it was fun cuz at the end kinda geoff jay crawford and zack hawley came and they jumped in the river and we took their clothes and shoes and put their clothes in a tree and their shoes on top of the treehouse and then they found their clothes and went and climbed the tree to get them but then we all went and grabbed their clothes off the ground and hid them under a canoo like 3 houses down.. lol then around 3:15 me n Geoff walked to get the video that was still under the canoo cuz they never found it and he was like u should flash me.. lol i was like riiiiggghhhtt.. lol then he had somethin on his stomach er somethin and hes like u should lick it off... so he was a little weird.. supposedly he likes me now... but who knows then me abbi n maggie went to the beach and we saw JJ n Jeremy and they kinda ran away then they came back and Maggie was gonna put sand on JJs head but then he got up and he pretty much just skated while we were talkin to Jeremy then we left and jumped in the river and swam fer a while but then we got out and went to maggies to tan then we jumped in and saw Jay crawfords littel brother and he took us on his jetski and we went to his uncles and swung off this big rope into the water a few times then i went back to my grammas so i could go babysit and thats about it.. today im guessin ill do nothin probably go home swim fer a while and go to sleep er talk on here or the phone.. .i talked to chase today that was cool cuz we havnt talked since he moved.. but yeh im gonna go i guess later lotsa love <3 Manda Joy<3
Posted at 7/21/2004 2:14:50 pm by manda2007
Friday, July 16, 2004
hmm im bored so im gonna write every line in a different color tonite lol i havnt done this since.... iwent to the marion maze with mike m. and correh and christian which was like 9 months ago.. lol thats funny hmmm.. im goin to the New Zoo tomorrow which shud be a blast then we're going to the cornroast... my parents are at my cabin this weekend so im staying at correhs... I have to call JJ tomorrow at like.... 11:30 so we can see if he can somehow come to the cornroast cuz i want him to... cuz i like him i like him alot.. lol oh god.. ive only gone out with him 3 er 4 times now and I still like him sooo much its weird.. but hes nicer to me this time so i like him more than i have any other time and its weird.. we're closer like im not afraid to sit on him or anything anymore which is probably good cuz last time i went out with him i was pretty much afraid to even wave to him or say hi or anything like that okay shit im done changing the colors its gettin gay and im sick of it.. lol humm de dumm de lol im bored.. waitin fer jj er andrew to get to one of their houses so i can talk to them... i dno my leg hurts its got a cramp adn my hip i think it popped outta socket before when we were in Billys car and it still hurts like a mofo... hmm mofo is a weird word lol mofo mofo reminds me of afro lol I havnt been to the zoo since i was like 10 lol i cant wait thats gonna be funny... humm i like monkeys monkeys are cool...lol that was random... oh well doin it n doin it n doin it well lol Kammy was singin that when we got in her car and JJ was like OKAY.... lol it was amusing then Andrew was dancing to I like the way you move bum bum bum lol that was funny then we were trying to move our hands liek 2 different circular ways lol that was really funny hmm........ i dno what else to type about but i havnt typed in so long that i want to type alot lol ohh... andrew jj josh slew billy kammy kayla and correh were at my house for about 45 minutes tonight that was funny cuz andrew and josh were playing my little sisters wiggles guitar and they kept playin the fruit salad yummy yummy song lol it was funny then JJ and Andrew and Josh were barking at my cat and throwing my hamster around in the air.... then me jj n andrew went out on my trampoline for like 5 seconds but then we came back in cuz i thought my grandma would come out there or something Im hungry.... but i just ate and my stomach hurts so im guessing im full lol i hate when im hungry but im full... well yehh i suppose im going to stop typin on here fer now so yeh ill write back later....hmm bubye luv ya lots <3 Manda Joy<3
Posted at 7/16/2004 11:44:47 pm by manda2007
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Im at Correhs cookout lol
ey whats up? not much here im at correhs house and shes having a cookout and we're gonna go shopping tomorrow lol i never update this so i figured id write on here. Correhs on the phone with Johnny boy as her grandpa would call him lol oh yes lol hmm I dont know what to write about. My birthday party was fun and gay at the same time. Well I got dumped basically so that was gay but my friends seemed to have a good time so that was good. I got yelled at by my dad like a bajillion times and then the next day he was being an asshole and pushed me down the stairs but I guess that works... I hate him. We havnt said more than 10 words to eachother in 5 days. Obviously our relationship is shitty. He hates me and I hate him so what more is there to say. and then my mom always wants me to go do stuff with him but why would I put myself through that torture of him lecturing me on how i really need to get my grades up if i want to get into college? I wish that he would just shutup and be cool for once but obviously that will never happen. I stole my sisters sunglasses today lol 
You are the best of both worlds - sexy and friendly, but not in either box.
Your charm is addicting, and you always have plenty of people flirting with you.
Im gonna put some more on here cuz im bored and correh just went outside so im downstairs all by myself ahhh im tired... i think that im gonna go join the party soon cuz i feel like a loner down here lol well that would be me... but correh was like that at my birthday too... well i guess im gonna go now ttul8a lol wohoo i updated!! bye
Posted at 6/15/2004 6:30:27 pm by manda2007
Friday, April 02, 2004
Alright i dont know whats up with my blog but its gay just like everything today... Ive been trying to call correh for exactly..... 4 hours and something minutes and guess what shes not home wow that shouldnt suprise me... i dno things are really starting to piss me off... im tryin to get a hold of someone so we can actually make plans for tomorrow but noones home and i don have a fuck of an idea where any of them are either.... errr!! so im guessing our plans for tomorrow are off because noone will get off their lazy ass and stop having fun and figure out what the fuck is going on! so once again im alone planning shit by myself... i have dance pictures tomorrow im assuming Ill see them all there so whatever i dont really care if noone talks to me about it tonight im gonna assume they dont want to come over anymore even though i cleaned my whole fucking house so they could but i guess thats life and exactly what i thought was gonna happen did go figure that too... as you can probably tell im really pissed off so im gonna paste some pictures of ashton hes the only thing that makes me happy anymore. 
Posted at 4/2/2004 8:39:29 pm by manda2007
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
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Fine fine... corri is on the phone with joe and they are talking like their in love lol its amusing joe is saying he has a big dick... which usually means the opposite lol and joe was talking about my ass before wow all in one day dicks and asses how fun.... that is my usless blob up above yeh... i dont wanna type on here im bored so yeh lol that made no sense lol hahah i think me and josh are gonna break up gtg bye all lol WOHOO I FINALLY UPDATED!!
Posted at 3/30/2004 3:57:31 pm by manda2007
Monday, February 16, 2004
Mkay today is a blue day in more than one way... hmm i havnt talked on this in so long... i have nothing to say worth being heard my life is worthless and i want to die... im gonna go thru this my whole life if i dont end up dying soon and im sad and mad and happy and ugghh i hate it noone understands me and my feelings im left out but yet i fit right in im mistaken but yeh im understood perfectly and thats why i need to die now! i dno today is gay and it seems like its me against the world im gonna make up a poem
Fuck you and all your lies
Fuck you and your disquise
Fuck you and your fake smile
Fuck you your time will come in awhile
Fuck you and your advice
Fuck you bitch jus think twice
Fuck you I hate you more than i could ever tellyou
Fuck you I dont really care if you hate me too
Alright im leaving im pissed and im tired and ughh ill go cry now bye
Posted at 2/16/2004 8:56:16 pm by manda2007
Monday, January 12, 2004
I feel like writing in Purple today so im gonna. Hmm whats been going on in my retarded life lately? not much i got my 2 little puppies ill put pictures of them on here some day when i actually have the energy to do it. Me and my dad had a long talk about pmsing today and it was quite amusing. Lol he got a new job so hes really happy and he was in a really good mood today and i hope hes always like that cuz i love it when hes like that cuz then i can tell him like everything and i dont feel stupid.. its 7:39 and im really tired after i get off here at like 8:00 im gonna clean my room so corri can come over tomorrow take care of my puppies and go to sleep cuz i wake up at like 4:30 so i have time to get ready and work out before school.. yes i think im going crazy but it makes me have a better day for some reason endorphines like on legally blonde but i think that is what makes me have a good day and im getting my body in shape too so oh my gawd 2 in one lol yeh im tired my eyes are gonna shut soon i can barely see lol and i have so much to do yet by the time i get to bed its gonna be like 11:00 ohmmm god im tired just thinking about it.. ive been really tired lately its weird and ive had such bad stomach aches in the morning and stuff i think im getting sick but oh well i did yoga yesterday and it was fun but yet stupid.. its so hard to do all the stuff you gotta be really flexible and everything is like lying dog standing dog sitting dog and its weird.. the lady is too calm and stuff i dno it makes you feel energized tho and i watched rich girls and i got the idea of standing on my head against my wall in the hall way and thats reallly fun cuz i can practically do the splits while im doing it so its amusing and my sister cant even get up against the wall. I really wanna take someone to the Dells with me when we go in 2 weeks but i doubt ill be able to which really sucks cuz it would be fun just me and her standing on our heads in the hallway and seeing what all the people walking past would do lol i would love that... hmm im tired for the 9303498th time lol yeh oh god im probably starting to bore you guys and ive pretty much ran out of things to say so ill write in here again as soon as i have enough time love you all *kisses* & *hugs* Manda
Posted at 1/12/2004 7:50:13 pm by manda2007
